Thursday, July 12, 2012

All junk, all the time

I think I may have hit a low point mentally about pregnant running. I'm 24 weeks now and it seems like an eternity until my due date, yet running already sucks a lot. Here's the kicker about pregnant exercise: most of your life, if you dedicate yourself to a training program, ditch the excuses and put in the time, then you'll feel stronger and stronger as you progress. In pregnancy, no matter how consistent you are about working out, your fitness is slipping away, like trying to hold dry sand in a clenched fist.

Pre-pregnancy, my runs felt purposeful and in general, pretty good. I would often feel like this after a typical weekday 9 mile run:

This is pretty much how I dance

Now, with rare exceptions, I feel like this about running:


Part this is because I have to run so slowly now that I feel like it takes me forever and the other part is my running feels pointless. You know how some training plans have "junk miles" built in? You know, the miles that have no purpose but to add mileage and do nothing for speed or endurance? All of my miles are junk miles right now. I don't push myself at all (because, duh that would be dumb) and I don't run up hills (again, dumb) and I'm more concerned about trying to take it easy than trying to accomplish anything beyond "left foot, right foot, left foot, right foot..."

At this point, you're probably doing this:


And wondering why if running sucks so much, why don't I just stop? Well, here's the thing: I'm willing to stop if I physically need to stop, but I'm not going to stop because I'm being a whiny bitch about it.

I'm trying to cover all the genres with my pictures today

So if you've been wondering why I haven't been talking about running much, it's because I realize that I'm a whiny little bitch. Just reading through my recent Daily Mile entries makes me want to smack myself. I'm having a normal healthy pregnancy and no one is making me run, so I'm just going to start trying to think more fluffy kitten and unicorn tears happy thoughts about running.



I mean, my life is pretty sweet. While most of you suckers were stuck at work today, I got to sit outside on a beautiful day and hang out with my favorite little whiner.

Chalk! I love chalk! When I get excited, it sounds like I'm saying cock!

Mommy, your legs would look better if they were more purple. Let me help.

My car is greener than your car.

Moral of this story: Complaining about something is pointless (however enjoyable) especially hobby stuff like running. Just do it or don't, or as one boss I had liked to say "Just give me the baby, not the labor".

You'll probably still see bitching and moaning from me on Daily Mile though, it's like my trademark now.

Do you ever keep doing something because you're too stubborn to stop? I wish I had the same stubbornness about housework.

33 comments:

  1. I think I'm going to have to steal that awesome phrase, "just give me the baby, not the labor."

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  2. I am the least stubborn person ever. I like to say that I'm just very flexible with myself and I won't ever be disappointed. I used to be a runner, but would rarely push myself. If I wasn't naturally good, it wasn't meant to be.
    I'm naturally average at most things. And because I don't excel, I don't bother trying.

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    1. I sincerely doubt you aren't awesome at something :)

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  3. I've seen Kara dance. It's not as good as Liz Lemon.

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    1. I am an awesome dancer. I refuse to believe otherwise.

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  4. you must be a really good dancer

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  5. Bitch and moan away. I looked back into my posts and around 24 weeks is when I started really noticing a change in running.

    And yes, I'm too stubborn to stop, which is why I waddled a quarter mile at 39 weeks so I could say I ran until I was 39 weeks pregnant. :)

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  6. I'm sorry you're not feeling great in the run. If it makes you feel better, that's how I'm feeling every run lately and I'm not pregnant.

    Love the saying from your former boss!

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  7. If it's any consolation, being injured sucks too--and there's no baby coming. I am running again, but all the runs either a) actually hurt or b) don't hurt, but when something hurts later, make me wonder if it was running that caused the hurt. Repeat that sentence, but substitute "physical therapy exercises" "Pilates" and "yoga" for "running" and you get the whole picture. I try not to whine too much about how bummed this makes me, especially reading everyone's summer race reports, because I know it's all "labor" and no baby...but geez, I do wish the universe would throw me a bone.

    Anyway, enough of my whining....I didn't run a step after 8 weeks of pregnancy, and I wish I'd tried for just a teeny bit longer. Believe it or not, I don't think you're doing it for nothing. It WILL help your fitness later. Just take care of your back and anything else that's different later too. Recover right once the kid is born. :&)

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  8. The pictures of Faith are so precious! I'm pretty stubborn about not cooking. Does that count?

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  9. This post is EXCELLENT! So glad I found your blog. And there's nothing like a bit of a vent. At least you;ve got some good bloggy support :-)

    I was stubborn about getting through law school (I will never use the degree) and now I'm being stubborn about my 'junk miles' so I can run a marathon.

    Best of luck - I'm going to keep following ;-)

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  10. I love that episode of How I Met Your Mother. I love Marshall...he's sooo much like my husband.

    Sorry running sucks lately. I wish I had some advice, but I got nothin'.

    Also, we'll see how stubborn I can be next weekend.

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  11. You're so hard on yourself. You're pregnant and still a better runner than me.

    Also If you dance like that you're a better dancer than me.

    So basically you win at life, no matter how much you whine. Give yourself a pat on the back.

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  12. I can't imagine what trying to run while pregnant, imagine it is very difficult but pretty sure you are still doing way more than I would. I can also understand being stubborn and sometimes being a whiny bitch too...this is why I just seem to disappear off the internet lands for periods of time. :)

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  13. Liz Lemon has moves.

    I'm pretty stubborn in general, but, hey, it gets things done.

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  14. Post baby I think you should try out for So You Think You Can Dance. I'm positive you'll receive a ticket to Vegas - ensure you incorporate the White Girl Snap.

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  15. My son had a dog that he named Baxter, although, he couldn't pronounce Baxter. Instead, he toted that dog Bastard every where we went.

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  16. I can totally relate. I have decent runs from time to time, but none of them leave me feeling strong and the way I used to feel pre-pregnancy. I've been thinking lately about how much I miss running - even though I'm still running - it's just not the same. I'll keep doing it though because it does make me feel a little better sometimes. I'm sure it's just going to get harder as I get bigger though! I think it's awesome that even though running is tough, you're still covering so many miles!

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    1. Yes! I feel the same way about missing running, even though I'm still running.

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  17. With my schedule being all out of whack with moving to VA (and yet still having to go back and forth quite a bit) I am feeling all kinds of out of it...unless I am running. It's just the getting started part that is so sucky. Hope this passes faster than a pregnancy because I'm not going to get a cute baby out of it.

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  18. I haven't been pregnant, but I know I would be the whiniest bitch of all. I think I would really struggle with seeing myself getting slower, but I know I wouldn't stop running either. SO, whine on. You're allowed too :)

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  19. i wouldn't look at your pregnancy miles as junk miles at all! you are going to bounce back quicker after the baby is born because of it.

    i like "ultra" training (can 31 miles really be considered an ultra?) but the runs take FOREVER. i can't get used to that.

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  20. I was going to say something like "no, you're awesome, don't be so hard on yourself, you're baking a baby" but even the hint of a Katy Perry reference got me so distracted I could barely finish reading this post.

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  21. I thought the point of a blog was to have a place to complain about everything?

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  22. Fortunately it is widely known in the track world how fast Kara got back in shape after her first pregnancy -- I think she & Paula were back competing about the same time -- so we know exactly what standard to hold you to.

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  23. Faith's car looks prettier than yours.

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