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No, my decision is much more complex: should I renew my gym membership? I thought that my 3 month membership would make it easy to decide, but I'm still pretty conflicted. Here are some of the negatives:
It feels like getting to the gym with the kids takes longer than any workout. Faith stops to smell any flowers that we see (and there are stupid freaking flowers in pots every 3 feet) so I'm forced to shuffle along slowly holding a fat baby and wondering why I didn't just put them in the jogging stroller at home. Then I start to fantasize about getting her one of those kiddie leashes when she randomly stops for the 37th time to look at a shiny rock on the ground. By the time this is all done, any happy running "zen" is zapped.
Going to the gym makes me lazier about cooking. Normally, I'm too lazy to leave my house to get food so never eat out during the week. It seems easier to me to just make food at home than to pack the kids in the car and go anywhere. Unless we're already out....then it starts to make a lot more sense to stop and get something. The gym is conveniently located by several wonderful fast food places and after a good run, I could really go for a trough of Coke.
Peer pressure. I don't need people being bad influences on me and getting me to lift weights or crazy shit like that. A few more months at the gym and I might start caring about "toning" and "sculpting" and there is no call for that in my life.
Here are the positives:
Faith LOVES the gym. When she wakes up in the morning and sees me in running clothes, she asks "Going to gym today?" and when I say yes, it's like I told her we're going to Disney World. She adores her Kid Fit class and just overall loves the whole experience.
I still don't know Faith's school schedule so if it turns out that she's going to be busy every day, then this positive will be null and void.
It's good for Cordelia to have other people take care of her. She might not love it every single time, but if I want her to be flexible and accept other caregivers, then we have to just keep doing it. We've come a long way this summer and if I stop going we may lose all that progress and I'll revert back to being the only person she deems acceptable to take care of her.
It beats running in inclement weather with the stroller. It's one thing to go out in the cold and the rain by myself, but it's more complicated when you have the stroller. I have the rain shield for the single and lots of layers and blankets for cold weather, but there something very tempting about having a dry warm option all winter, especially since everyone is hyping up how this winter is supposed to be colder than average.
As you can see, this is a very complex issue that requires serious consideration. My life is so stressful. It's amazing that I can function with this decision hanging over my head. Let's forget about all the Miley Cyrus twerking and Syria related news and focus on my problems:
Renew or not? You're in charge of my life decisions. Don't mess it up.